With that said, here's the latest....
We had an amazing Christmas! It is unbelievable how much JOY this little girl brings to our lives. She is a blessing beyond measure!! She may never really know the magnitude of how she has fulfilled our emptiness and longing to be parents. For a couple that was once empty and lost, we are now full and complete. I was just telling my Mom, "I used to have a hole in my heart, an empty feeling that was bigger than anything I had ever felt.... since having our girls... I don't even remember what 'empty' feels like." Although I have to admit, I don't think the trips [to see our other babies] at the cemetery will ever get easier. However, I just keep reminding myself that God is Good! Because, you see, He could have needed both of our girls for Angel's, but instead He chose to allow us to keep one here on earth... for that I will forever be grateful and never take a moment for granted!!
We are so blessed to have all of the amazing people in our life. She is so blessed! Her Christmas was so wonderful! It is funny how what you once put all of your focus on becomes less important compared to ensuring her happiness and longing to spend every waking and sleeping moment with her!
Every day is such a new adventure. I have always loved the mornings, but now I can't wait to wake up. Seeing her bright smile is so worth every ounce of lack of sleep I receive. (big smile)
Everything that is new to her seems new to me as well, even if it is something as small as licking the cookie dough off the beater. I see things so different by looking through her eyes. She gets so excited about the littlest things we seem to take for granted daily. She is teaching me that even though it may be minute to most, it's huge in comparison to her. It certainly changes ones outlook on life. If only we could all go back to the innocence of a child how simple our world would be. I'm just trying to live my days with the faith of a child.
On another note, it's ironic how life takes a turn... we lost my father-in-law in November and this last week my best friend from Elementary school found me. It has been amazing to catch-up and rekindle our friendship... I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason... and I know that Ryan, Alexis & I are beyond elated to have him in our lives! We won't lose touch again!
I leave you with this thought: No matter how big your mountain, no matter how big your test; remember that if God brings you to it, He WILL bring you through it! I've learned the hard way that every Test I have been given has only granted me a bigger TESTimony! I can honestly look back now and say, I wouldn't change a thing! Everything I've been through has made me stronger and a better person. It's made me sincerely appreciate life and all God has afforded me. So remember, don't tell God about your problems....introduce your problems to your God and see how things change!
"We live by faith, not by sight" (2 Corinthians 5:7)
Have a blessed day!